This was taken directly from a post I made on Facebook on “Thrive With Bipolar Disorder” known as “team THRIVE”.
team THRIVE! I made a mistake in my life that I want to share with you…
Everything I have achieved in my life was due to perseverance and persistence. Everything I have done has been hard for me.
I believed that I am meant to ALWAYS STRUGGLE in life.
This is NOT TRUE. I was wrong.
Everything does NOT have to be a struggle.
I stayed in circumstances where I struggled so much because struggling was what I knew how to do well.
I know how to struggle.
I believe this is true for many people with bipolar disorder.
As a result, I caused my own suffering.
When I wasn’t struggling…I created struggle.
Not struggling, was scary for me.
I needed to struggle in order to feel normal…my normal…and in order to feel safe.
If I was struggling, it meant that I had self-control.
My deepest fear ever is losing control of myself.
I struggled so that I would always know that I was in control of me.
team THRIVE, everything does not have to be a struggle.
I don’t want you to struggle to thrive.
I WANT YOU TO THRIVE BECAUSE YOU DON’T HAVE TO STRUGGLE.
It took me 15 years to learn this…I hope that it won’t take you 15 years.
Well, it really took me 31 years to learn it…but who is counting. 😉